So last weekend i learned something. hah. God really opened my eyes to something more important than my head wanted to hear. Being humble is something that's so hard for most of us to do. I don't know if its harder for guys or girls, but I do know that everyone is almost always in competition to be better than the last person. I was reading a verse my friend wrote down for me and it was something like "Be humble before the Lord and He will raise you up"... and it just kind of stuck in my head. That and what Sean said on sunday morning when we were all sitting on the wet log benches of the ampitheater at pamona; "Fear tolerated is faith contaminated". It all came together for me this weekend. Yeah, everyone likes attention. I want to feel wanted, important, and unique. But what it really is is acting like Jesus. Jesus WAS wanted, important, and unique, but He surely wasn't full of Himself. He was the humblest of all.

I also experienced the act of sure, let's call it jealousy. Sometimes, when I want to talk to a friend of mine, someone I love with all my heart, I'll want her to just come and draw close to me, and spend time together: just us two. And I figured no one is perfect, and it doesn't always happen like that... and it's kind of the way Jesus and I are too. He wants me to draw near to Him all the time, but I don't always run into His arms first. Hm... it's funny when you doubt that there is anything else you could possibly learn about God, when you press in hard enough, you enter into a whole new realm of His presence.

On a lighter note, making new friends is fun. so is sleeping with rain drops bouncin off your tent. Watching your friend try to fish, but then she drops the pole from freaking out after seeing a bitty snake in the lake is hilarious. It's always nice to get to know who you really are more, too... and also who other people really are. hah...
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